We MiSS aNd L0VE Y0u S0 S0 S0 MucH Y0U'll NeVeR KN0W! MAN OJ I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE TO WRITE THESE WORDS [[REST.IN.PEACE MY BIG BROTHER OSCAR JAMES VILLARREAL]] IT GETS ME EVERY TIME!! EVERY THING HAS CHANGED YOU WERE A BIG PART OF MINE AND BUNNIES LIFE AND IT WILL REMAIN THAT WAY FOREVER. ITS SO KRAZY YOU'D BE THE LAST PERSON I THOUGHT WOULD LEAVE ME YOU WERE MY HERO, MY ROCK,AND A FATHER FIGURE TO ME AND BUNNIE I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU COULD NEVER D.I.E NOTHING OR NO ONE COULD HURT YOU I LOOKED UP TO YOU FOR SO MANY REASONS [[YOU TAUGHT ME WELL!!IN YOUR WORDS]] AND BUNNIE WELL [[LOL]] SHE TOOK AFTER YOU ALWAYS FIGHTING AND BEING BOSSY ILL NEVER FORGET YOU TAUGHT HER HOW TO GET KRUNK TO SUM Z-RO LOL IT WAS SO FUNNY AND SHE STILL DOSE IT BUT IT HURTS SO MUCH CUZ YOU TAUGHT HER THAT AND I HOLD EVERY THING YOU'VE DONE SO DEAR TO ME I'M ALWAYS GONNA HOLD IT DOWN FOR YOU ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT IT'LL NEVER BE THA SAME I CANT WAIT TO GET TO HOLD YOU AND TELL YOU YOUR SELF HOW MUCH I LOVE AND ADORE YOU AND BUNNIE SHE WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR LIL GIRL ALWAYS!!![[YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKIN BOUT]]WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH BUT MOST OF ALL I MISS YOU I CANT SAY THAT ENOUGH I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO THINK OF HOW TO EXPLAIN MY PAIN!!!!!!!!I'LL LOVE YOU TILL THE END OF TIME   BROTHER & SISTER L0VE N0 0NE CAN TAKE THAT FROM ME I MISS YOU EVERY MIN. OF EVERY DAY NOTHING IS THE SAME ANYMORE I KNOW YOU WOULDN'T WANT ME TO CRY BUT I CAN'T HELP IT THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE THE ONLY WAY I GET THROUGH THE DAY IS KNOWING YOUR IN A BETTER PLACE [[SAFE & SOUND]] GOD TAKES THE BEST AND OJ YOU HONSTLY WERE THE BEST I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I MISS BEIN ABLE TO HIT YOU UP AND JUST CHILL MAYNN I CANT BELIVE IT?!?!?!? WHEN I DREAMENT OF YOU, YOU SAID YOU WERE FINE I KNEW THEN THAT YOU HAD MADE IT HOME IT GAVE ME PEACE FOR ONLY A MOMENT BECAUSE I GOT TO SEE YOU AND THEN I WOKE UP AND IT HIT ME THAT YOU WERE REALLY GONE AND YOU HAD REALLY MADE IT HOME I LOVE YOU [[MY HERO]]   BuNnIE WILL A.L.W.A.Y.S Be Y0uR lil GIrL!!! I Pr0MIsE ARIONA WAS YOUR ANGEL HERE ON EARTH BUT NOW YOUR HER ANGEL....I KNOW WHEN YOU COME AROUND YOU SHOW YOUR SELF TO HER ITS SO HARD I WISH I COULD SEE YOU ONE MORE TIME!!! JUST ONCE MORE [[OJ IT HURTS SO BAD I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO I JUST WANT TO GO WITH YOU!!!AND I FEEL SO SELFISH I KNOW I CANT LEAVE MY SWEET ANGEL I ASK GOD TO FORGIVE ME FOR MY THOUGHTS BUT I JUST CANT HELP IT?!!!??? I FEEL LIKE EVERY DAY IS JUST A DREAM...WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO I STILL NEEDED YOU SO MUCH! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GO ON WITHOUT YOU?PLLZ SEND ME A SIGN I JUST WANT YOU TO COME BACK TO US I HATE THAT I CANT SEE YOU NO MORE I HATE IT!!! IF YOU ONLY KNEW* I ALWAYS PRAYED FOR YOU ALWAYS AND I STILL DO MAYNN OJ JUST SEND ME A SIGN HOW DO I GO ON?]]1   FAMilliA P0R ViDA OJ YOU ALWAYS TOLD US FAMILY WAS EVERY THING AND THATS HOW IT IS IN OUR FAMILY ALL BECAUSE OF YOU!!! NOTHING ELSE MATTERS BUT OUR FAMILY AND WERE MISSING A BIG PIECE OF OUR FAMILY Y.O.U WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH WE [[ME, BOBO, GORDY, CHUCK,& VITHA]] CANT WAIT TILL THA DAY WE CAN CHILL WITH YOU IN GANGSTA PARADISE IT SEEMS SO FAR AWAY BUT I KNOW YOUR WATCHIN OVER US!!!I LOVE YOU REST.IN.PEACE OSCAR JAMES VILLARREAL.............YOUR WERE A VERY SPECIAL PERSON HERE ON EARTH AND YOU MADE SURE YOU NAME WAS WELL KNOWN [[LOL LIKE THE TIME WE WENT TO THE CARNIVAL]] AND I KNOW YOU HAVE A VERY SPECIAL PLACE IN HEAVEN! I MISS YOU SO MUCH!   wE MiSS y0U SO MuCh OJ...........OuR pR0tECt0R, OuR ANgEl THeSe pAST H0lIdAyS WeRENt THa sAMe WiTh0UT y0U i WiSH WE c0uLd HAvE 0uR BROtHer BACk MAyNN iF y0U ONly KnEW H0w MuCh i NEEd y0U WhEN S0ME0NE W0uLd HuRT ME i AlWAYS C0uLd RuN T0 y0U AND i WOuLdNt HAvE T0 WoRRY B0UT ANyThiNg i FElT S0 SAfE WiTh y0U NOW i FEeL S0.......L0St It W0uLdNT MAttER H0W 0Ld 0R H0W BiG ThEy WeRe If THey HuRT ME ThEy WERE g0NNA gET HuRT N0W i fEeL AlL Al0NE????????? N0W i juSt L00K F0WaRd TO tHA dAy I GO HOME i kN0W y0UR G0NNA Be THerE WAiTiN. y0U WErE THE 0NLy MAlE iN MY lIfE THAT NEvER dID Me WR0NgE i C0uLD ALWAYS RuN TO My BiG BR0ThER [[ALwAyS!!!]]N0W Wh0 AM i SuPPOSEd T0 RuN T00????????Wh0S G0NNA MAkE SuRE y0UR BuNNIE d0SENT EvER GeT A B0yFRIEND?????? y0U SAiD Y0U WeRENT G0NNA lET Her HaVE A B0yFRiEND......i H0pE Y0U STAy TRuE T0 DAT AND WAtCh 0VeR HER S0 ThEy W0Nt HuRt HeR!!!!I L0VE YOU OJ!!!!!!!   Y0UR GiRLS y0U L0Ok S0 HAnS0ME   y0UR ANgEL HErE 0N EArTh   MAyNN Oj aRe ThESE HEARtAChES EvA g0NnA g0 AWAy???? ThA PAiN iS uNBEARAblE.........i MiSS y0U LiKE kRAZy......i h0PE y0uR PR0Ud 0F ME!!!!

MAyNN OJ iM S0 S0RRy F0R N0t AddINg ANyTHiNg S00NEr.......iTS JUSt S0 HARd t0 C0ME ON HERE ANd SEE ALl THE PiCTURES OF y0U iT HuRTS T00 MuCH  iT BREAKS My HEARt EvERy TiME, i CANt SEEM t00 MAkE SENSE Of LiFE WiTH y0U AND SH0RtY g0NE???? WHY D0SE lIfE HAvE T0 G0 ON WiTHOUT y0U i DONt UNDERStANd YOU WERE A vERy SpECiAl pERS0N !!!!! y0U NEvER HARMEd ANyb0Dy UNlESS THEy MESSEd WiTH US!!!! YOU HAvE AlWAyS BEEN OUR PR0TECT0R i MiSS YOU OJ, SO MUCH

ItS s00 hARd OJ F0REAl

I tHiNk AbOUt U EvERydAy, i MiSS My bIg BROtHER S0 MuCH.......i d0NT SEE H0W OUR fAMiLY gOES ON WiTHOuT U.......i kNOW uR THA REAS0N WE ALl HAVE STRENGTH t0 gET UP iN THA MORNING iS U....YOU WiLl AlWAyS liVE IN MY HEARt!!!!!!!!ALWAYS i pR0MISE Y0UU.........i W0Nt lEt u d0WN!!!!

tHA pAiN WiLl NEvA g0 AWAy!!!

MaYNN Oj THiS BiRTHDAy WAS ThA W0RSt BiRTHDay EVER..........bECAuSE yOUU WEREnT HERE!!!!!i WAS S0 dOWN yESTURDAy CAuSE y0UR NOt HERE iTS S0000 HARD........THE pAIN iT NERVER GOES AWAY....DOSE IT???LAST YEAR YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE DAT WAS WITH ME FOR MY BIRTHDAY AND NOW YOUR GONE IT DOSENT MAKE SENSE.......WHY YOU, YOU WERENT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE YOU WERE NEVER FAKE, ONLY AS REAL AS IT GETS! EVERYONE LOVES YOU SO MUCH.......I LOVE YOU OJ.

oj i miss you so much foo maynn i miss huggin you, i miss talkin to you, and most of all i miss doin your eyebrows lol foreal what id do just to get a fukkin hug form you..........id do anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!the pain get worse every day cause it just another day that gose by that i havent seen you or hugged you,or even talked to you i dont know how much longer i can take it..........but maynn i promise you one thing who ever took you from us is gonna pay i PROMISE you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!maynn when you went home you took almost all of my heart all thats left is tha part of my heart that beats for ariona maynn and it hurts even more that shes not gonna be able to actually know the greatest, realist man that she ever would have known but i promise ima gonna tell her about her uncle and how much he loved her and tha things he was willing to do for her and her mama oj no one in this world could ever take away tha pain of loosing you....... from time to time i read tha messages that you would write me on myspace.......i keep evey word you wrote me close to my heart.... speakin of dat i found your ice house in my car untouched maynn you forgot it lol i couldnt belive it i love u

oj.........i dreampt you last night and oj it was man tha best dream ever i thought i woke up from this night mare you told me you didnt go any where and i asked you for a hug and mann it was so real............i really thought i was awake oj why i only got to see for a lil while its not fair oj god why couldnt have been real oj why did you go you knew how much tha family needed you.....i remember what you were wearing like it was real..........i know ill see you again one day and there be times like last night and youll come to me but oj its not tha same i wish i wold have never woken up this morning but tha only thing that helped tha pain was wakein up to ur bunnie........shes mean like you but yeah i love you oj

OH OJ MY HEART ACHES EVERY DAY THAT G0ES BY AND I DONT GET TO HEAR, OR SEE YOU.......iF 0NlY Y0U WERE HERE MY LIFE WOULD BE PERFECT EVEN WITH ALL THA LIL DRAMA I COUlD DEAL WiTH iT BUT i DONT KNOW HOW MUCH l0NGER I CAN KEEP G0IN IT SO MUCH HARDER ON EARTH......HEAVEN IS WHERE I WANNA BE......WITH YOU & SH0RTY. I KNOW YALL HAVE MADE IT, NO WORRiES[[......i W0NDER iF iT HURTS YALL T0 SEE US IM SO MUCH PAIN FOR L0SING YALL?]] ITS JUST HAPPINESS.....AND ITS SO KRAZY YALL ARE UP THERE WITH GOD AND OUR SAVIOR JESUS I MISS  YOU SO MUCH OJ, i HAVE SO MUCH ANGER BUILT UP iNSIDE OF ME  i D0NT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO LET IT OUT I CRY LIKE A BIG BABY BUT IT D0ESNT HELP AT ALL THE PAIN IS ALWAYS THERE IF ONLY I HAD CHILLED WITH YOU THAT NIGHT YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE LEFT US CAUSE I WOULD HAVE DONT ANYTHING FOR YOU.I LOOK AT ARIONA AND WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU I CRY SO MUCH CAUSE SHE ISNT GONNA HAVE ANY MEMORY OF YOU, YEAH SHELL HAVE PICTURES AND EVERY THING I AND OUR FAMILY TELL HER BUT IT WONT BE THA SAME YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO BE THA MALE FIGURE IN HER LIFE, BUT NOW YOUR G0NE WHOS GONNA BE A "FATHER FiGURE" TO HER NOW. WELL I GOTTA GO CAUSE ARIONAS SLEEPY I LOVE YOU OJ SO MUCH!!!!YOULL NEVER KNOW

my heart feels so heavy........oj i really wish you were here!!

I miss u so much oj........im getting my own apt., i never thougt you wouldnt be here to help me move or just to chill at my place. I still can't belive you'r gone, it just doesnt make sence, i live a nighmare everyday that goes by that your not here......i think about how you and ariona would be together if you were still here???? maynn this world doesnt make sence i swear, why man why........i didnt belive you were gone when mom called me and told me, shit in my eyes no one or nothing could hurt you. i love you so much!!!!!!

OH DEAR GOD, i MiSS My COUSiN SO MUCH AND THA PAiN NEVER SEEMS TO GO AWAY I DONT UNDERSTAND LORD HE WAS SUCH A GREAT PERSON.....WHY DID HE HAVE TO GO, THERES NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DONT WISH HE WAS HERE. FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE I WILL NEVER BE  COMPLETE AGAIN.

OJ, i WiSH I WOULD'VE TOLD U I LOVED YOU ONE MORE TIME AND TELL YOU HOW I LOOKED UP TO YOU...YOU ARE MY HERO AND ALWAYS WILL BE....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I KNOW I SAY THAT ALL THA TIME BUT I CANT SAY IT ENOUGH, AND THA PAIN IS SO UNEXPLAINABLE. IT HURTS SO MUCH, CAUSE ALL WE GOT LEFT ARE THE MEMORIES && DREAMS, EVERYTIME I HAVE A DREAM ABOUT U I TRY TO MAKE MYSELF THINK ITS THE TRUTH , BUT THEY ALWAYS SEEM TOO SHORT NO MATTER HOW LONG THEY REALLY ARE. I GOT A TAT FOR YOU ON MY BACK [[IN LOVING MEMORY OF OSCAR]] W/ THE TAT U GOT ON YOU [[THE CROSS W/ THE PRAYING HANDS]]!!I LOVE IT ONLY CAUSE ITS FOR YOU......MAN IT HURT BUT THE PAIN OF LOSING YOU IS WAY WORSE. IN A WAY IT SOOTHED [OR HOW EVER U SELL IT] MY PAIN OF LOSING YOU....MAYNN ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH I MISS U!!!!!!!&&OJ IM SORRY I HAVENT BEEN GETTIN ON HERE MORE OFFTEN......BUT U KNOW I PRAY TO U EVERYNIGHT BFOR ARIE AND I GO TO SLEEP!!!I HOPE U CAN SEE ARIONA NOW SHES SO BIG AND TALKING SO MUCH.....SHES FUNNY CAUSE SHES NOTHING LIKE US, SHES SO SWEET AND POLITE SHE LIKE A MINIE GROWN-UP ITS FUNNY.......SHE WILL ALWAYS BY UR BUNNIE<3<3<3<3<3......SINCE SHE DOESNT HAVE A FATHER TO LOVE HER LIKE U DID, AND I PRAY STILL DO!!!!OJ THE BOYS MISS U ALOT I CAN SEE IT IN ALL OF THEIR EYES BOBO, GORDY, CHUCK AND VITA THEY LOOKED UP TO YOU SO MUCH........I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH OJ

oj  today for some reason is so hard and i wanna scream!!!!!!!LOUD..........its been too long since ive seen you, heard you, did your eye brows, or just give you a hug........i thought i heared you to day it made me feel so sick......&&& maynn i cried, i cried at work and i dont like to cry infront of anyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!i wish i could turn bakk tha hands of time......i miss you like krazy!!!!!!!

ps. i changed the background to horses because your ari 's horses but she doesnt say it right but yeah she goes krazy when she see a horse!!!!!

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